Yesterday when I came home from work, Alan was already home. This happens on occasion, but is fairly unusual. I was excited because I thought it would make our evening - going to Michael's preschool Christmas program - easier to coordinate. I love it when he comes home early. So, when I walk into the living room, sweet Alan proceeds to tell me he was laid off along with three other people in his department. We've been through two job losses for him before. I was hoping that would be it. Evidently not.
How would I handle this if I wasn't a believer in the sovereignty, grace, and faithfulness of God? Really - what hope would we have?? It's still hard...thinking of bills to come to balance on a two-and-a-half day a week salary. And struggling with some depression like I do - especially seasonally - this is not the best time for me, anyway. But oh my. I am completely overwhelmed with the support through emails, phone calls, financial offers...calls from COMPLETE STRANGERS that is all to encourage us. It's absolutely as overwhelming to receive all this support as it is to go through this situation in the first place. God is so, so faithful to bathe us in His love through the efforts of friends and family around us. I truly do have complete faith that He will see us through and that this will be a time of tremendous growth spiritually. Would I choose this situation for us? No. Will I try to see how God is going to use this for His glory? Absolutely.
Thought: do not listen to the Brooklyn Tabernacle Choir's CD with the following scripture, though, unless you want to be a big crybaby driving down the highway. Thank goodness big sunglasses are hip right now.
Psalm 121
I lift up my eyes to the hills — where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip — he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you — the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm — he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.
Reading your blog made me so proud of you. Alan is so blessed to have a wife like you. Scripture can always minister to me. I receive encourage, direction and understanding through scripture. I have to focus each day not think about what ifs and enjoy the glory of God in nature and family. We all love you and will do whatever we need to for you. You can even live in our house, eat from our table and drive our car (not the Corvette). With perseverance, hard work and God’s help this shall too pass. We love you.
ReplyDeleteOh my dear...hang in there. God is always in control. This is hard to see how things will work out, but in the end, the Hand of Providence will be all the clearer. Here is a big West Coast hug for you and Alan...I love you!
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